Reflection.

It seems as if I have been emo-ing lately.

Okay, maybe that's an understatement... But I leave for Singapore with Jianing and Li Yun in a few minutes. May or may not post about our epic adventures there depending on how I feel about them. What you will see, though, are photos on Facebook, and posts including some about us being high on sugar.

For those of you that have e-mailed or commented, thanks so much. You don't know how much I've needed this. And for those of you that haven't, I want one million dollars at my doorstep tomorrow morning, along with a few bars of Cherry Ripe. Deliverable to Lim Wei Yun, and if a Mr. Klar tries to steal them from you bribe him with a few episodes of Axis Powers Hetalia.

... I just realized that he'll be able to read this. My blog, I mean, seeing as how all my posts get imported into my Facebook notes. But oh well. Err. Hello if you're reading this?

Oh well. Doesn't matter so much. For the moment, hasta la vista, don't miss me too much, yadda yadda yadda. I laughed two days ago, and am smiling now. There isn't any point in my moping around. All I can do is transform my sadness into proactivity, appeal to the universities, and hope for the best. And continue writing, posting, talking to people, going on with life as usual. Prudy, much as I hate to admit it, is right:

Hello!

Since you check your emails obsessively, I think you'll get this. But if you don't want to read any sort of "cheering up" emails yet, then please ignore this until you want to.

I don't think anything I saw anytime soon will make you feel better. But time will. Time heals all wounds. Its been a few days, and we're all coming to terms with what we've done to ourselves. Whatever it is, I just wanted you to know that nothing is over until you admit defeat. I understand you think its horrible, but its not. The event has passed. I hope you know that there is only one way - forward. You didn't fall on your back. Its not broken. Nothing like a little treatment to heal it. I think its pretty obvious, but life is filled with ups and downs (believe me, I've had my fair share of those), but its that we find solutions and keep looking forward, and never letting it prevent us from living our lives the way we WANT it to be led, the way it should be led.

You have time and youth. The possibilities are out there. Whether it is appealing, Australia or whatever, there are always options. Good luck.

To live in the past for too long, we become unable to see the paths in our future. It is the future that we should look to. So I dunno how you'll take this, but no matter how many times you refresh, it stays the same. You can't change the past. You can change the future.

Beary cute.

Today, I went hunting...

For a mascot for the SOBA famiglia.

(To those of you that do not know, you will never find out what the SOBA famiglia is. WHY? Because we are epic. Well, some of you know already but I consider those who do SOBA associates and affiliates. And SOBA is in no way supposed to be mistaken for soba, which is what Kanda Yu always eats and... Oh back to the post.)

Selecting a mascot for us was not an easy task. There were several pets that I considered:





Alas none were badass enough. There were also some pets that I immediately rejected:



Nevertheless, I was finally able to select a pet that was sufficiently badass for a badass family like ours. In fact, it was so badass, I had to keep it in its cage.

Nevertheless, it has now been trained, and we, the SOBA family, now have a mascot. Meet...

Sobear!

(Geddit? Soba... Sobear... Yeah.)

It was born on the 28th of June, 2009 and is 38 centimetres tall and 244 grams light. Its birth certificate states that it belongs to be, however I had to use just my name as a ruse so that we could smuggle something as badass as it back home.

Beware of its badass jacket, it might set you on fire.

And for those of you that are not in SOBA, I hope that the retardedness of this post did not scare you away. God I miss being this retarded with a group of people. When I'm being retarded alone people just give my funny looks. At least there is strength (or stupidity?) in numbers.

Jianing's coming back soon, and I can't wait! I am excited as anything. :] God I miss all of you. Sometimes I wonder, like most people in my situation would have, what would have happened if I hadn't transferred out? What would have happened if I had stayed where I was? And I keep thinking and thinking and thinking and...

Why the hell does it matter, we're still close as ever.